Big Boy!

Logan is now 7 months old. I can't believe it sometimes, where did the time go?
He is growing so fast. He is grwoing so fast that is he wearing between 9 and 18 months clothes. I have a pair of camo quicksilver shorts 12 month that I bought for him and I can't get them on him.
For those of you wondering about him helmet apt. Well... I missed it. Ya ya ya . I'm a bad mom. I thought it was at 1:40pm, but it was at 1:00. So I got there at 1:20 and the doctor had left. I was mad. Yes it is not their responsibly to see where I am at or if I'm coming. But it should be a courtesy, especially if that doctor is leaving and I live and 1 1/2 hr away. Any who. After telling them I was upset with the situation I had to reschedule for this Tues.. at ONE.. I won't forget.. Promise!

As you can see he is sitting up. He is still doing the army crawl, but he is getting much faster. And he is getting in two more teeth. One on the bottom and the other "eye" tooth on the top. Before I know it he'll be walking!!

It's Not all Fun and Games!

My son hasn't been the happiest kid on the block for the last few weeks. Granted he is teething, and man does it get hard. For an update on his teething process He has gotten his first tooth! And no it is not one that we expected. It is his top left "eye tooth"! What the heck, my kid is soo not normal. He has also started to do the "army crawl" He hasn't really figured out that he can use his legs to help him get around so he just pulls himself with his arms, but boy does he move fast. So now we are having to start the process of "baby proofing" the house. What joy!

Anyway since Logan hasn't been in the greatest moods, I have started taking pictures of all his grumpy and pissed off faces. He is still super cute, but I would much rather him be smiling!

Wes & Logan Doctor Update

So today we had both doctor appointments for Wes and his cancer check up and Logan and his head/helmet appointment..
I guess we'll start with Wes. Everything looks good and still NO cancer which is such as awesome thing. There is just one thing they are concerned about right now and that is his Liver. Two months ago when we were at the doc his labs were a little high on his liver function, we really didn't worry about it since he had been drinking the night before. Well at this check up they are still high, actually the same as last month. He has to re-due liver function labs in three weeks and we will go from there. I'm not going to freak out just yet. Personally I think his liver doesn't know what to do now that he doesn't drink as much.. It's going crazy!

As for Logan. My poor boy. We went to his first helmet appointment today where they measured his head and fitted him for his helmet that he is going to have to wear for the next FOUR MONTHS, 23 HOURS A DAY!!! Holy crap. I never in a million years thought that he would have to wear this thing for that long. I thought maybe just at night or something. NO 23 hours a day.. My kid is going to go nuts. The helmet is very lightweight but it is hot. And my child does NOT like to be hot.
We did find out that his head is a lot worse than what we thought. He has a mild to moderate case. His head is A symmetrical. Kinda like a lop sided egg ( is that even possible?) And it is so bad that his ears are about 1/2 off from each other. They said that if he didn't wear the helmet he could get TMJ when he was older and also his face could grow wrong and be disfigured. So I guess I have to take the next four months and suck it up. It is not going to be easy for the first week or so, but I know that we can get through this.
On the flip side, I already feel defensive about my boy. I really don't want people staring at him. For one because it's none of their business and for two I know that I will say something to people staring. I know that we all do it. We all tend to look at anything that is "different from the norm" but it all changes when it is your child. I feel like Mama bear ready to attack.. So please beware. I'm ready to attack!
We go back next Friday to pick up the helmet and make sure it fits. Wes has been calling him Corky since he was fitted. So I guess Corky has one more week of freedom. On a positive note, I'm sure we can think of something cool for him to be on Halloween..

This was a picture before they put the cast stuff on. It is the sleeve so the cast doesn't stick to his head. ( oh and his helmet is a huge American flag!!)

Something to remember

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there…to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again.

Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create you own life and then go out and live it.

I know this is different from my "normal" posting but I think this is something we ALL need to remember.

One Year.

Wes and I have now been married for one year.. Holy Moly. It feels like ten! So a year ago on Aug. 15th Wes and I went down to the court house and got married. Our Wedding was Sept. 22 but we couldn't wait that long. And NO it wasn't because I was pregnant it was because Wes has just been diagnosed with cancer and his insurance only covered 20%. Well 20% adds up when were talking thousands. So I needed him on my insurance through work so we both would be double covered.
We have gone through so much in such a short time it really does feel like we have been married for ten years. Wes and I were talking about this and he just said our marriage is like dog years, for every one it is more like seven!

Sea World.

So Wes turned 36 on August 9th. He is always so hard to get any information out of. I had been asking him for weeks what he wanted to do and I always got the same response; " I don't care, you pick." Well it wasn't my birthday so I didn't want to pick, and since last year he had been diagnosed a week earlier with cancer I really wanted to do something fun this year. So finally last Wed. after me calling him all day he said "Let's go to Sea World". At first I laughed and then I asked if he was serious. And he was. So I bought the tickets thru work because they are cheaper and a better deal and then I booked us a room because the San Diego house has people in it and we were set. Just so you know I haven't been to Sea World in about 10 years so I was a little excited to go. We have been talking about going for the last two years but never got around to it. So we get off the freeway, pull up to the entrance and HOLY HELL, everyone and their mom decided to go to Sea World on Saturday. Grr. I hate crowds and lines and waiting. Oh and I hate that half of them don't speak English. Anyway, I figured oh well and let's just make the best of it because we can come back again before May 31 of next year for free. So we did. But we were only able to see one show because of all the people and it was hot and Logan wasn't a big fan of all the yelling and clapping.

You gotta watch out for these guys, they like to do "dive bomb missions" and steal the fish.

And here is my baby on the way home, sleepy guy.

I have more, but I'll post later.

Oh and Fran tagged me the other day so here are 6 words to describe my family.

1. poor

2. funny

3.moody

4. loving

5.crazy

6. faithful.

so anyone else who reads this, well you have been tagged.

You might think I'm crazy, but...

I LOVE MY HUSBAND'S FACE!!! He really hates when I just start taking pictures of him. He starts calling me "freak" and all sorts of other things. Then he thinks by making weird faces it is going to make me stop, but it never does. I just take more. I love the faces that he makes and the weird things that he does.

This next picture is Wes' "You better stop now" face.. But do I ever listen?

I know it is blury, but I still liked it.

So when all else fails he trys other things to get me to stop taking pictures on him, like showing me his gum. Why? well because im a weird and HATE gum.. ew ew ew. I hate everything about it, the smell the taste and expecially the sound of it when people are chewing it.

So when that also doesn't work he trys this, and by now I'm just bored, so I stop!

A Fight with Cancer!

Today I was looking through my calendar that I always keep with me. It is a two year planner so I tend to look back at last year to see what we were doing or what was going on and year ago in our lives. Well I did this very thing today, and guess what I found out.
It was one year ago that Wes was diagnosed with cancer.
I can't believe it was a year ago that our lives were turned upside down. I was 12 weeks pregnant when we walked in the doctor office thinking Wes was just weird and had a growth on his neck. An hour later we walked out and didn't know what had hit us. I was already crying when we were in the office, but once we got to the truck I couldn't handle it. We spent the next 5 hours in labor and delivery so I could get re-hydrated. ( I woke up that morning already sick with a migraine and nauseous) While I was laying there in the bed all I could think was the worst and why had this happened to us. We are good people, never have done anything super bad. Why did God do this to good people who were just starting a family and planning a wedding. (It's a good thing we got pregnant when we did!)
That was on a Fri and the following Monday Wes was in surgery to biopsy the tumour that had been growing on his neck, that is how they could stage his cancer to see how bad it really was. So we waited a week and found out that he had stage two- bulky lympthoma. After further test we found out he had tumors all throughout his lungs, neck and armpits. So the next six months consist of chemo treatments every other week for about eight hours. Wes was off work during this period and at times was very sick. But for those of you who don't know... MY husband is a freak. They told us he would loose his hair and a lot of weight, but only the opposite happened. He gained weight and never loss his hair.
Wes has now been in remission since Febuary and doing great. We still have to go every two months to get a check to make sure it hasn't come back, but the future looks bright. I am so thankful that my husband is healthy and still goofy. I don't know what I would have done if anything had happened to him. At times I want to kill him, but ultimately he is my rock, my other half, the father of my child, and I truly do need him in my life.

Logan's Doctor Appt.

So today we had Logan's six month doctors appt. and shots. Yippee. He actually does very well with his shots. He will cry for a minute ( literally) and then stops and smiles. He is one goofy kid.

So there is no nice way to put it. MY KID IS BIG. He is 21lbs and 27 inches long. Holy Cow. He is one healthy kid. The only thing that we are concerned about is his head. Since he was a wee little one his head has been flat on one side. So the doctor has referred us to see someone regarding a helmet to help shape his head to be more round. Wes and I always had a feeling this was going to happen. When he was younger it was much worse, and has gotten better over time. I guess I just didn't want my kid to be the one who wears the "special helmet" grr.. Anyway I guess it is best to do it now and get it over with so my little boy will have a perfectly round head.
Ill keep you updated, I'm just waiting for the doctors office to call me back.

Summer Showers.

This morning it was very muggy outside but the thunder clouds were coming in! So about 3:30pm it started to rain and thunder. Well by 3:45 it was pouring. I love the rain and I expecially loves when it pours. It was coming down so fast and hard we had about three inches of water on our street at one point and then it started to hail. Oh I was in heaven. My family just looked at me like I was crazy when I went outside and just stood in the rain.

This is when it first started.

It was bouncing of the truck and the garage.

Our porch

Outside my little office.

Oh I just love the rain. I wish I lived in a place that had rain all the time!

Chunk Monkey Water Boy!!

Logan is now 6 months old. I can't hardly believe it. Where did the time go? So for a while now is has acted like he is going to get a tooth any minute.. Well, we are still waiting. All the symptoms but no teeth. What the heck? This is almost torture. His symptoms are only getting worse and in the last week they have gotten HORRIBLE. We have now noticed a little bit of white on the very bottom so hopefully soon. Anyway, today was out of control. Kohl is here and didn't want to listen to a word I said, if I said sit, he would stand, if I said run, he would walk. well you get it. And Logan was out of control crying ALL DAY LONG, which he hasn't done is so long. It was rough needless to say. SO the only thing that made he happy was the pool. The kid loves water, just like his Mom.

Well today I didn't feel like sitting in the kitty pool so I pulled up a chair and sat next to it trying to hold Logan up. He was mr. wiggles today and is always trying to put his head under water so I needed to think of a new stragey. Lets just say it didn't work, the darn thing floats.

So I just used his bathtub chair which worked great, if he wasn't trying to weasle his way out of it. So we sat in the pool for about an hour and he was happy durning that time. Then I brought him inside put a diaper on and he went right back to screaming. Thank God my parents live across the street. Nancy came to get him to give me a little break. It was either that or me going to play on the highway.

Look at that face..

Chunky monkey thighs ( he also gets that from his mom)

Poor kid!